Retire already! ....Damn!!!

Working for government has brought me to this..."these old mutha fawkers need to gwaan sih dung" somewhere (yahtzee, anyone? ). Give that space to someone capable of innovation and abreast of technology. Give that chance for a stable income and some benefits to your "grandchild". Because he/she is about to hit thirty and doesn't need you to keep their seat warm anymore.

 

I have worked in three different units under two different departments,  because I refuse to be complacent. Some people however are prone to fester.  It seems by the time a worker hits retirement age they ride the clock way past their expiration point, no longer challenged by the work or cable of innovation.  Why?!..Leave al-fucking-ready! I feel like I'm working within the confines of an organizational anachronism. Outdated technology,  outdated methods, obstinate to change and thus obstinate to improvement, worse yet outdated staff.

 

I don't dislike older people,  in fact I love my current boss because she makes a conscious effort to learn things and adapt.  Most people however struggle with this...adaptation. And once you're in government.... well it takes dedication to get you out so all this old blood taking up space for the new is running these agencies into the ground. Im using technology from the late 80s...windows office has had 3 revisions since 2003...yet guess what im using, servers crash daily, paper for everything,...I could go on.

 

Once all these old biddies leave, the old dilapidated shit they leave over is going to be a mess to fix! But I guess that's not their problem...and that's the point of all this at the end of the day...its not their problem. They will collect those checks and leave someone else to clean up the mess.

Average Joe

So, I don't really do this too often- you know, the whole taught myself a lesson thing. But I'm gonna have a Dear Diary moment with y'all.

So I have a type. Any one of my friends know what it is, for those who don't -tall, brown to dark, and emaciated slender. I'm also superficial when it comes to mouths. And with this "type" I've gotten into all types of shenanigans over the years. I got caught up in the Matrix with pathological liars, chronic cheaters, whole-bodied assholes, narcissists, etc.

So twenny-leven was the year that I decided to change things. To be more open minded. To date outside my box because it wasn't working for me. Now I've been blessed with good pull. I've dated IT professionals, Engineers, (note the plurals) etc but I wanted to experiment with Average Joe.

Whomp m effin Whomp

The average Joe is not for me. Nope, nope, he's not. When someone says that he is comfortable with his station in life, and knows nothing about creating a stable environment for family - emotionally, spiritually, and financially...its just not going to work. I cant be hungry (ambition-wise) and this dude is chilling on his crackers and cheese lifestyle. Naw..matterfact...hell naw!!


So what did I learn. I learned that I need to stop being lazy and really run far and away when I start seeing red flags. I have a problem with curiosity...and we all know how that turned out. I learned that I shouldn't judge a book by its cover, withstanding teeth- cause if you cant take care of those....then, wtf? Maybe "he" doesn't have to be brown. Maybe he doesn't have to be tall. Maybe he can be a businessman. Will I die if he doesn't have a Masters? No, no I won't. But he has to be extraordinary.

Loyalty

People always crave love.  They want that magic feeling,  that "mi amor", "ooh La La". But the other day I was sitting around with some friends of mine,  and it dawned on us that you don't really care for someone unless you have gotten to a point where you've wanted to push them down some steps.

That "eyes wide shut" love is cute at first,  but how have you or would you handle your eyes being wide open? When the euphoria dies and the vessel full of blood and bones next to you starts irking you, what would you do?

I say eff "in love" and in its stead,  give me loyalty. Give me assurance that thick and thin can happen and our partnership will prevail. Maybe I'm wrong but I can survive without the "in love" because that feeling ebbs and tides. When you don't even know whether you even like the person next to you, it is so easy to run. Love done dried up, right!? Focus on this instead: When isht gets tough, do you think your partner can communicate?  Will he be a leader in the home and provide for his family?  Would you trust him w your SSN? Will he put in as much work as you?

A partnership built on trust and support to me is true love. Everybody else can keep "the butterflies".