Hello, my name is April and I'm a drunk dialer.

It is a rather simple equation:

Alcohol + Free nights and weekends = Self Destruction

It never fails. IT NEVER FUCKING FAILS. I get a lil loose off the goose and what do I do at 3am?  Pick up the phone and either find HIS number to call or type a text message that looks like "Omgnf I fweckin lik uuuu soodfdo mcuh" ...I have mastered the art of slurring my texts because if he picks up the phone after I repeatedly call him that is exactly how I will sound. So uncool, so unlady like, so funny, yet so wrong.  Brutal honesty pours out my mouth followed with hiccups. I am a hot flaming mess and at that very moment I don't give a fuck. I am having the time of my life and I just want to share that moment with someone who ends up becoming a victim/participant of an unbecoming phone call.  Most of the time it is hilarious, but then there is a time when I can slur out something that was fermenting in the back of my head for weeks and a conversation goes south q u i c k l y. 

*sigh*

I am a habitual line crosser and I don't know how to get out of this vicious cycle of vodka and sprint. I need help people.

Ever woke up feeling like an asshole? Smelling of bad decisions and yesterday?  Knowing somewhere in the world you burnt down a bridge?

Friday night I almost ruined a perfectly good friendship with a young man that I am really digging. Dating life almost in shambles. All because I was feeling talkative and just wanted to hear his voice. Welp...the next day arrives and I learn that he was not entertained by my shenanigans.  o_O  Completely embarrassed.  All I could do was apologize multiple times. He was the kick in the ass that I needed to make some sort of self-evaluation happen.  I was 24 and still felt that drunk dialing was acceptable. I mean I love Drake's "Marvin's Room," because someone has either been Drake or had a Drake call them. But let's be honest...that was not cool.  Drake should have took his drunk ass home and slept off that rose' and xo.  Following my own advice I am hoping that this guy will see that I am human, still growing and forgive my indiscretions and understand that although I have wild child tendencies it is never my intention to be disrespectful.

...I just really wanted to hear his voice <3