(pause) I am on my after dark shit.....(back to scheduled programming)

......I just wanna.......

Fall in love...and be love....and understand what it is to love.....

I wanna feel things......shit really....I just wanna feel......

I wanna be held....be kissed....and close my eyes and fall.....deeply into you....

Damn yo.....I just really want to meet you.....

I need to know what it is to have a heart filled so deep.....and desires realized...

I just want you to want me.....forever.....

Forever sealed with a kiss.........I guess I'm on some Cinderella shit......

Because I know that type of love can exist....and I know that I can give this type of love away....and I know that it possible for me to have love that makes me FLOAT AWAY----into eternity......you and me......forever.......

.....Just think about it......

I guess I'm dreamer......

Pretty unicorns.....scented rose petals......rainbows and stars.......

But I guess I can't be dreaming to hard......if I only met Niggas thus far......

But I dream nonetheless

What it must be like

...to be able to look into your eyes.....and melt away......to blown just by the scent and feel of your sweet breath on my neck.....and then I'm lost....and I have given you control....take the wheel here's my mind, my body, and even my soul----cause its yours now.....forever if you like.....

I aint even a poem type chick....but you inspired me to write.....

A muse you are....in every since of the word..... I dont even know your name.....or was it possible for love like this to unfurl....

Might I say it....You're perfect or perfectly made for me.....

I can't even think straight....I am drowning.....but please don't save me....

Cause I'm dreamer.....and I'll dream until I find you......

Cause I aint asking for much....just a chance to say I LOVE YOU
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Please take this apology....for what it's worth

we are together....but i want to be apart...i want to be not here..not there...somewhere...far (I guess...I second guess....I third guess...and then you call)

you say...baby I love you...you say....you are the world...you say....I am the best thing that happen to you.....and I nod....I agree...I repeat those things back to you....like a parrot....and an idiot....without a mind....without a soul....(do unto others..right????)....yo I am so sorry....really.....I am so sorry.....

breaking up...to making up.....and doing it all over again.....finding excuses....but who cares right....I'm just trying not be lonely......

cause I feel empty....I feel lost...I feel like I'm lying to myself....I feel as if.....I cannot do this anymore....

ever been surrounded by so many people and feel so lonely......yeah....I do....cause I am the worst person....and I know it.....

living a lie...finding ways to concoct happiness.....but never finding it.....finding ways to smile...but always faking it....

i have confessions....when we are together I close my eyes and think of him.....(damn I am sorry)......fucked up thing is I do not know who him is....or does him really exist......

yeah.....

Just take the apology for it's worth